Patience In Change

There’s a lot of things that make life scary like uncertainty, doubt, and the fear of the

unknown. Sometimes, we think that there’s no way we can be the people we truly desire to be.

At least I know, I used to think the same way before I found what my purpose was and became open to change. Change is scary when you think that nothing will happen, no matter how hard you try. It can even be frustrating when you start something new and have to wait for the results because we often want the results “right now”. We automatically want that change right there in front of us, but with time comes change, and with change, patience.

Even knowing this, it took me a while to change. It wasn’t like I was comfortable being at my parent’s house with no job or degree, but the anxiety when it came time to put myself out there was far greater than my desire to want any change around me. I often thought that even if I did try to apply for a job that I would just get rejected anyway and I often did. When I finally did manage to at least get an entry-level retail job, I was so uncomfortable at the beginning that I constantly felt it wasn’t worth it. Even now after almost three years it still feels like it’s not worth it even if I’ve gotten used to it now.

If I’m being honest, it wasn’t until my first anniversary working retail that I really

decided to put myself out there with my writing. I started writing a fantasy novel (that I’m still

working on at the moment). This was way before I decided to get back into poetry, but if I hadn’t

already decided that I was going to become a writer, I would’ve never started my journey with

my poetry that led me to become published.

In short, if I’ve learned anything from this whole journey, it’s that change takes time and

that’s okay. I still don’t like working retail, but I’m getting used to it. I know it’s not my forever

and that by the end of it, I’ll be further along in my writing career. So, I’m willing to put in the time because considering how much things have changed compared to when I started, I know things will certainly be different from this point on.